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Sunday, August 07, 2005

bertdei

Posted at 1:41:48 pm by sunshinesupnet
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Thursday, February 17, 2005

bhnd dos smiLeS

Behind every smile

There's a sad little child

Who's crying inside

Trying to hide it for a while

Behind every smile

There's someone trying to break through

To show their real selves

To no longer be blue

Behind every smile

There's someone telling a lie

Not allowing anyone to see

All the tears that they've cried

Behind every smile

There's another sad face

Whose suicidal thoughts

Made them fall from grace

Behind every smile

There's somebody real

Who tries to hide their pain

And never show how they really feel

Behind every smile

There's some lost soul

Just waiting to be found

That's their primary goal

Behind every smile

There's a secret being kept

That's killing them inside

And the reason they just wept

Behind every smile

Is someone all alone

Who can't stand the yelling

And wishes to leave their home

Behind every smile

Is a sad little story

That they keep bottled up

And forever will they worry

Behind every smile

There's someone who lost their way

Who puts on a happy face

To get them through each and every day

Posted at 3:35:53 am by sunshinesupnet
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

lyf suxx

What is life? Really what is it? Cause right now life aint doin such a good job if its supposed ta make me happy. I'm Sunshine and this is my kingdom. My hell. My hell is my life. I hate my life. Should I end my life? No... Im not going to end it cause sumone who i think i love well get hurt. i think he loves me too but im not sure. i have alot of questions. not ne u could answer. y the hell u here newayz? this is my hell. i mean if u wanna keep readn bout my pain and my sufferin go ahead. if not stop readn now cause well hell aint fun.

my first question is of love. does love matter? is love real or is it sumthin that we make up to try to make us happy. if it isnt real well then damn i have a good imaganation. i think i am n love. but the person who i love isnt as sure as me. y should he? i mean im fat. im ugly. i hate myself. the only person who makes me happy is this guy. her name is "______" he is my ______. he might be sumone elses honeybear but hes my angel. my question is does she love me? not an answer i expect to get a good answer from.

my second question is of my family. is it just me or does ur family piss u off all tha time too? everything they say or do makes me mad. i jus wanna beat tha shit. so what i do now is i sit up n my room pissed off all tha time and talkn ta "______" does ur family make u as mad me mine does?

my third question is for my freinds. why do u put up wit me? u dont no thats y. im a pretender. i prentend to be all right on tha outside but on tha inside its like a hurrican. a thousand things happining at once. it all has one sorce. life.

well my question for all u is do u know? do u know nething about me? or do u wanna no about me? u dont. u dont i prentend. y must i pretend? i hate it. i have to act for every one else. act like my life is perfect. it isnt i hate my life. i hate alot of stuff. but there is one thing that will make me happy no matter how mad i am. my "______" will make me happy. will urs?

Posted at 3:27:09 am by sunshinesupnet
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